Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sharp pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.
About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. โI would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,โ she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like several causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. โI was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,โ she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. โIt robs you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,โ she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been documented across the ages. โThe earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,โ write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.
Historical medical records suggest bizarre treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient โsuffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hoursโ.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like โa modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eyeโ. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. โYou're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,โ one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.
A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.
National guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.
But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: โThe length of the cycle dictates the treatment.โ Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout โ an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.
The national guidance need updating to reflect a